THIS DAY.

Tuesday, December 19, 2006
2:58 AM

GIVE UP.

giving up on trying to
understand others.

giving up on trying to
let others know that i've
havent forgotten about them..

giving up on thinking that
i can find a job.

giving up on thinking that
my friends will gladly go out
with me.

giving up on thinking that
my family will fully
understand me.

giving up on this blog and i will
soon delete this...

giving up on thinking that
as least someone will read my blog.

giving up on thinking that
i can go overseas this year..

giving up on thinking that
i'm getting my results which is
3 months later..

giving up on EVERYTHING
which includes HIM.

i'm been thinking alot..i really should give up.
no one understands my thoughts, NO ONE.
i thought my family understands, my friends
understand..but ended up,
NO ONE UNDERSTANDS.

i don't wish to understand anyone now.
cause i know that they don't even think
about my feelings..so why should i?

i'm just very selfish. i guess.
i'm really am.

Recorded by Jun

onLIVE: Junnie's records

Tuesday, December 12, 2006
2:37 AM

kamenashi kazuya. (20)

23March1986

my favourite idol. been watching his shows since last year.

he's a guy who is really hard working and his spirit is the one

that i wanna learn from him. =)

kame in tatta hitotsu no koi!(one love) omg..so shuai.

when i saw this scene i was like.."OUCH! it really hurts!"
but, he was kakoii (handsome) ok?? :)

really liked him in this show...must watch!

Recorded by Jun

onLIVE: Junnie's records

Thursday, December 07, 2006
10:28 PM

kyowa..
1 littoru no namida miteta..

1 litre of tears. very nice. i cried abt
2 litres..so sad and touching..i've
realized alot of things after watching
this japanese drama..yes. i know.
treasure the time u hav now.
u'll never know wat happens in the
future..and i'm gonna take the
opportunity to do the things that i've
never done before and the things that
i'm always afraid to do..including
telling ******** that * **** ***..?
i guess so..maybe nxt year? or even
christmas! wahahas. it's coming soon!
25 dec..maybe to others it jus another
public holiday but to me..its very imp.
i really need alot of courage u see..
:)) well, put that aside..

this holiday is gonna torture me.
i havent found a job YET!
since last week, NOT even a job
confirmation! sighs. i guess i'll have
to try my luck again! soon! i do need
money now! my contact lens, my sch fess!
whether is my poly fees, or my retaking
of 'o'lvls fees..i promised myself to
earn as much as i can now! not only these,
i'll have to help my dad...i know that
there are others who are even poorer
than us BUT i must hav a stable income
before i can help others right? that i've
promised myself. :)

my art teacher is finally on holiday...
he emailed me and told me that he's
in new zealand! omg..man im so jealous..
well, i'm happy for him though..
finally have a good rest..always seeing
him so busy with sch work, rush here
rush there..so tiring! i hope he'll have a
very enjoyable holiday!

lastly, hoping my frens will be more
mature as this holiday is ending..
do some soul searching and
i pray to buddha that they'll be
happy always, staying positive!
last but not least, he can get into
the jc he wanted to! :) good luck!

07.12.06

Recorded by Jun

onLIVE: Junnie's records