THIS DAY.

Sunday, April 29, 2007
5:51 PM

ahem. today really nothing special to talk about..

went to collect my uniform just now..

(i mean my working uni)

hmmm..i don't really like my pants BUT no

choice...cause i'm working mah..

what should i say lehs.. maybe this work

really don't suit me BUT it's the money that i needed

urgently! no money no talk.. and somemore my dad..

sighs. shall not talk about it anymore..

yesterday went to my grandma's house..

i found a vcd which it was taken long time ago..

it was the holiday trip to port dickson on 2001

(it's like 6 years ago?!)

oh well..i was watching it and i saw my grandpa

in the video too..hmm..i don't know why all of a

sudden i really missed my grandpa..

it made me felt so sad suddenly..

sighs.

today not a very good day for me..

oh well,JIAYOU for the future days bah!

that's what i can say..:)

he's avoiding me? whatever.

i missed those days..those days that he didn't

know about my feelings..:(

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Tuesday, April 24, 2007
9:25 PM

hmmmm...
today went out the whole day..
first, accompany my sis to
NUS library..cause she's lonely.
haha. LOL. then..went to NAFA
to pay my sch fees..after that,
went to SGH to accompany my
grandma for check up..cause she need
to undergo some eye operation..
just checking the eyes make us waited
for 3+HOURS!!!
out of house: 10.00am
back at house: 6.00pm
WHAT A DAY.
just one word to describe:
TIRED!!!! oskareta! >.<
phew~but i'm feeling bad for leaving home
for such long time..been out these few days
then keep leaving mum alone at home..
feeling so bad. argh. :S well, trying hard not
to leave her alone at home..
cause i think my mum kinda depressed nowdays.
she always crying when she thought of our family
matters..what else..MONEY problem again.
my dad is someone who don't really know how
to save up money..once he had money he'll spend
them all..now he's in debt with many banks..
lawyer's letter even came to him..
that's why i needed a job URGENTLY.
i don't care how horrible the job is..
i just needed money..for my family finance,
as well as my sch fees..and art materials!
that's the biggest headache among all..
SIGHS. how am i suppose to pay for those
damn ex. art materials if i don't work?
my sister can't possibly pay for me right?
she has her own sch fees to settle too..
mine is $3000plus per year hers,
$5000 per year!!! OMG. i hate money!
though money can help us buy alot of things
but money can also HARM us in alot of things
too..sighs. HEADACHE. AHHH!

whatever. i'll do what it takes to earn as much
money as i can! JIAYOU! i shall survive!
i WILL survive! i will be PERSISTANT!
DETERMINED! STAY STRONG GUO JUNZHU!

-aza aza HOITING! fight on! hang on!

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Saturday, April 21, 2007
11:34 PM

well well..since songci INSISTED on updating..
so, here i am! LOL. kidding lah..didn't insist..
just REMINDING me to update lors..

just feeling abit bored these few days..
and i'm really looking for to work in hush puppies!
hope m and ci will get this job and get to work tog!
Praying hard! yays~well, songci and me got i NAFA!
muahahas. i'm happy! cause i'll be in nafa and seeing
wanci everyday in sch! really wanna go study in nafa
NOW! since i LOVE ART soooOOO much!
that san1 can1 li2 bu4 kai1 ART! LOL.
actually i DO love art as well as music..both are my
interests and i really hope that i'll be able to work
in the future just anything to do with art and music!
example like art tcher..artist? if my art really very good..
maybe webpage designer? or even music producer!
wahh~so many jobs i do really hope i can actually
take up one in the future..hahas.

todae went out with siok..went to TM again.
(cause yest. went to look for job with songci den we
went TM..so..) we finally took neo tog just the two of
us..for the first time!(: happy happy.. hahas.
but then, today was really short outing..she had to go
church aww..that's sad. we both seldom see each other
then come out also for a while only..but nvm. it's still
enjoyable though..=)

today TM alot of ppl! compare to yesterday..me and ci
yest went to look for jobs wahh..one word: TIRED!
hahas. we started looking jobs from Parkway den make
our way to TM walked for 4+whole hours..minus lunch
time and etc..wahh~buay tahan man..oh well..still hoping
our EFFORTS yest will pay off one day! someday! next
monday! muahahaas~alrights..enuff of my crapS! today's
post kinda long cause long time nvr post? hahas!
blog collecting dust everywhere..but will change blogskin soon
AGAIN..i love doing skins! *

so, update again someday!
-i lay my love on YOU*

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Sunday, April 15, 2007
6:34 PM

as i've just said:
NOTHING MATTERS NOW.
NOTHING.

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Saturday, April 14, 2007
6:51 PM

alright..alright..
i know it's getting dusty my blog now...
VERY DUSTY.
sorry lahs.
can't use the comp too much nowadays..
mum's nagging me..SIGHS.

well well, went for interview at singpost
two days ago..
wanci introduce de..it's actually phone-calling
work lahs..
haha. tiring but i think it's a very good time for
training for me! as well as songci..haha!
don't know will i get in for this job and just hoping
i will...cause everyday at home doing nothing
useful..sleep,eat,use comp..etc. and one thing:
NAGGINGS.sian...that's why i'm getting a job!
needed money for school fees and help family's
financial too..ahem*LOL. it's TRUE lah!

well,sorta upset with my best friend nowadays..
though i didn't actually said to her that i'm kinda
angry but just don't want any arguments or unhappy
things between us.(: well,she has changed alot.
no longer the person i knew four years ago..
erm..i don't blame people for changing cause i myself
is changing everyday too! but it's just that she's so diff-
icult to contact and i really have no idea what is she up to
nowadays..no replies from smses and calls..maybe, i guess
she's just busy. i don't wish to think about it anymore..
cause the more i think the more upset i get..so..yah.

OK,ok..enough is enough..shall not say unhappy things
from now on! get ready for my trial next mon-fri!
GANBATTE MAS! fighting! JIAYOU! WAHOOO!
haha. it's time to grow up and be more matured!
in mind,body and soul! I CAN DO IT!
*clears throat*
this is June calling from ** Associates representing
Pr*****ial. Good evening! Did i call you at a bad time?
lallaa~me and my craps..

LOL.

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Friday, April 06, 2007
2:14 PM

ALRIGHT.
one sentence for today's post.
climbing the bukit timah hill was really
very VERY TIRING!
yawns.

yiichou.yi3 shang4.

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Sunday, April 01, 2007
8:30 PM

my blog feels cold now.
hahas.
been a long time since someone has tagged~
well...hmmm..yah.

things have changed.
changed alot and changed very much.
Life is no longer a smooth sailing boat,
Life is no longer full of laughters and happiness..
Life is no longer as simple as it used to be..
different people has diffferent lives..

I think my life is changing constantly everyday..
some days i will cry, some days i will laugh..
laugh because i'm happy, laugh because i need
to laugh to make myself feel better.
weird huh?
yup. i've always regard myself as a weird person.
Well, not only my life has changed,
my personality has changed too..
not to mention my childish-ness,
maturity, i think i had matured somehow.
though my mum kept scolding me and kept
telling me not to behave like a child,
but the truth is i'm not actually.
it's just that i don't know how to express myself
well..sighs. i don't know what i'm talking about.
forget about it.
I've been very depressed for months..
Cause there are lotsa things that i can't
understand..ALOT of troublesome things..
maybe it's because i'm a person who thinks
alot and in fact, thinks too much.
heh. well, that's my flaw actually.

Trying to change myself though..

even it's bit by bit..i'm trying to..

changing for the better,

changing for the good.

I don't know whether i'm doing the right thing,

neither i know that i'm changing the right way..

But, i know that i just wanted to do the things

that i think it's right.

Even i'm on the wrong path,

i'll know in the future and i will learn from mistakes.

Learning. It's part of life right?

Just hoping for the best for myself as well as my dearest

friends and family.I don't know they'll know about my

inner feelings but i wanted to say these out to them:

"Thanks for the understanding. "

To me, get well with people,

Understanding is the most important factor.

And sad to say is: I'm lacking the factor.

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