THIS DAY.

Sunday, May 20, 2007
9:28 PM

UPDATES

okay okay.. here i am updating again.. this week work for 4 days!
omg omg omg.. so tired!!! third day i can't tahan already lor..
so yesterday was the worst. SATURDAY.
busy like HELL! so many people.. so tiring..
everytime my saturday is my off day.. so this is my first sat
at work.. cannot get used to busyness.. at one point of time really
wanna go home. misses home so much.. misses my comp. misses my
mum's home cooked food. misses my 4B PENCIL. misses my music.
misses soo many things at home! my god. really, working isn't easy!

realised alot of things during working..
and i think that now after i've started working, i've matured.
not ALOT but bit by bit..each and everyday..i get to know how the
society is so complicated and now that i'm just trying to step into it,
it makes me felt so afraid and scared at the moment..i was thinking,
what if next time i couldn't survive in this society? can i get to earn
lotsa money? will i get to enjoy my work in the future? i don't know
why all of a sudden all these questions popped up and i really have
no clue at all..not even one question answered. nobody knows the future..
NOBODY can predict it in fact! what i've decided is let the nature takes its
course. what i CAN do now is focus on my work, finish off my 2months horrible
job and get on with my studies at NAFA..gonna PING1 DAO4 DI3!!!!!

no matter what happens have to JIAN CHI ..for my own good, as well as my family..
parents can't always be supporting you right? YOU HAVE TO SUPPORT THEM!
it's really a cycle..so..that's it! i've decided! MOVE ON with my LIFE!
live on with NO REGRETS! stand up!! think of the BRIGHTEST SIDE!

been losing contact with my good friends lately..cause of my busy-ness in my work
also they are busy with their school too..BUT trying my best to stay in contact! :)
and also, lately i've been EMAILING with my
dear fren JOYCE. haha. have to say, she's really a cute friend of mine..she suddenly msg
me one day and told me she has written a LOVE 'LETTER' to me..telling me to check my
email..after reading it, i was really shocked and very touched at the same time.
shocked because i didn't expect her email was really an email..(cause mostly i get is forwarded emails).. touched because i didn't expect her to actually typed an email to me and cheering on
for me telling me to jiayou for my work and stuffs..she's really very sweet. :) THANKS JOYCE!
though i know she don't read my blog BUT just really wanna thank her from the bottom of my heart! ARIGATOU!

ALSO, i wanna thank my DEAREST surnamed SONG named WANCI!
thanks so much for all your cheering on and your accompany! though i know that now we're really busy with our lives now BUT let's make promise okays? meet up whenever we're free!
no matter how busy we are..at least twice per month! OK?? hahas.

alright then, have to go! tmr WORK WORK WORK! sleeping early!
yupp! oyasumi minna san! nites~ update again someday my off day!
wees!! :) staying positive always*determined- to stay STRONG.

Recorded by Jun

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Saturday, May 12, 2007
9:55 PM

irritated and frustrated DAY.
don't know the reason too.
weird feeling today.
easily getting so tensed everyday..
WHY?
stress from work?
i don't know. i'm sort of in daze during
work everyday..
sometimes feeling so tired that i could even
close my eyes and doze off while checking
the shoes! my gosh.
what's so wrong with me nowadays?
i thought i'm suppose to HANG ON?
i'm hanging on..surviving i guess.
my 10th day tomorrow.
my horrible times are coming!!
great sales had just started yesterday..
i guess tomorrow will be a BUSY BUSY
day for me..jiayou bahs.
i've to hang on for another 1month 20days.
ganbatte nei. anyone..just anyone could
understand my feelings now?
i can't even understand myself.
i can't expect anyone to know it too..
whatever. ignore me. i'll be fine soon.
i believe i'll be fine. i can do it.
i will hang on. i will survive.
i will make it. i will take on challenges.
i will!!!! I MUST! my school fees.
my other NEEDS & WANTS.
GANBATTE KUDASAI!
AZA AZA FIGHTING!
JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!!!

short and very saddening post.>.<
sleeping early today.
tmr work work work!
shikotou nei! ganbatte mas!

Recorded by Jun

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Saturday, May 05, 2007
1:35 PM

finally there's a day for me to update le!!!! :) off two days..
yesterday and today..wahahha.

04-05-07
well, yesterday my sis' frens came to stay over at our house...
we've steamboat for lunch and dinner..it's been a VERY VERY
VERY long time since last time anyone visit our house..and it's
the FIRST time someone stayed over at our house..though
they're my sis' frens but i still treat them as my big sisters too..
we had games during the night and those who lose have to drink BEER..
(opps!) i'm underaged. LOL. of course,i have to drink too! oh well,
I HATE THE SMELL OF BEER! it's really horrible..and after finish
the beer we changed to WINE.(opps again!)hahas. but it's really
FUN and ENJOYABLE! playing games and chatting about lotsa stuff
during the sleeping times..chatted and played games till MORNING 6am plus..
i slept back at 7plus after watching TV(well,morning nothing to watch)
woke up at around 10plus and still feeling a bit tired and low in spirits..
cause last night was my most terrible nights..when they were talking about
relationships stuffs..i'm the MOST INEXPERIENCE one and the MOST
LOUSY of all..(duh~) i can't really describe my feelings..but from what i know
it's that it's really a struggle for me to talk about relationships stuffs infront
of HIS SIS..sighs. HIM again. what else. i'm really think that i'm sooo LOUSY.
what always think of him??? i don't understand and i don't like it AT ALL.
in fact, i hate to think of HIM! the more i think, the more frustrated and help-
less i get..his sis sensed my unhappiness during the chats and asked me out of
concern, "What happened? what thing made you unhappy? do you want to share
with me?" GOSH. how am i suppose to tell her? how in the HEAVEN am i gonna
say about his bro to her? agonising,depressed,LOST. not knowing what to do,
i told her i don't wish to say it..the end. goodbye. SIGHS...

I DON'T KNOW! Wanted to forget about him sooo badly that i keep
reminding myself NOT to think so much about him..BUT the problem is:
instead of reminding myself to forget him, i kept thinking of him.
(what and what?!?!) WHATEVER. forget what i've just said. i don't know how
to express my confusion well...

05-05-07
my second off day!
which is today LAHS..abit upset today cause tmr have to WORK!!!
SIAN SIAN SIAN SIAN SIAN!
but NO CHOICE, money money money..earn earn earn!
everyday is a LABOUR DAY for me i guess..if i want to describe my job..

first thing in the morning: HOUSEKEEPING
cleaning of the shoes and shelves..

second thing in the morning: CHECKING OF GOODS
trying to remember the shoe codes and their places.
(it's really a big HEADACHE for me..)

always in the mind: WARM AND FRIENDLY SMILES.
there a BERRY thick book about HP that i need to revise it
everytime when i'm free..customers' services, shoe sizes,
shoe colour codes, history of HP, technology of the shoes
(comfort curve,wave reflex,bounce ETC)those tech that made those
shoes sooo comfy! haha. yah..lotsa things to learn and i have 2months
time to remeber as much as i can.. my supervisers derrick and joe..
well don't really like the first one..BUT he's the most experienced one
and i'm always learning after him..(i hope i can pass his test!:P)
good and the bad bahs..for this job..good is: learn alot of things
bad is: nothing related to ART. :( (BOOO!!)

was wondering how long i can take this job..how for at least a month!
cause the pay is by monthly..LOL. oh and also...

first thing after work: fetching the heavy pail of water to prepare
for cleaning up.

second thing after work: pull down the shutters..
(which are damn heavy job for me)

third thing after work: vaccuming the floor
(the shop isn't small! sianz.)

forth thing after work: mopping the floor!
(after vaccum mop the floor..TIRED sia.)

fifth thing after work: checking the display of shoes
(any shoes out of place etc.)

sixth and last thing after work: cash out. counting of sales!
(yawn yawn)

alright, one thing i'm for sure is i enjoy the work is when i get
very friendly customers and esp JAPANESE customers.
wahahahs. that's for SURE:) LOLOLOLOLOL.

OKAY..enough is enough. enough of my entry le!!!
so damn LONG today..crappy and i can only update one week!
shall update AGAIN AFTER ONE WEEK!!! awaiting the days to past..

-looking on the brightEST side may help me feel better.

Recorded by Jun

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