THIS DAY.

Friday, March 28, 2008
11:26 PM

Don’t want to say much so just a short post though.
hmm..school's been damn stressful,
even though i'm SUPER positive about my work..
haha. well, had acrylic lect today...
kind of tiring and makes me think of my secondary 3 days..
almost had no recollection about mdm zee had taught us
about acrylic painting. cause at that point of time we're
still very childish and hated our art lesson.
until just today, I realised mdm zee was a very good teacher.
although she didn't really liked us, as everyone else
wasn't paying much attention in her lesson but still,
come to think of it, her lessons weren't as bad as i thought
at all..i'm trying my best to rmb what are the important
notes that she usually pointed out and now i'm trying
to search for all my art notes. XP ohmygod.
am i too late? i'm not sure myself too though.
oh well, things will be better i guess.. as long as i stay
POSITIVE! yep. gotta have some sleep SOON,
chiong for work these weekends!
ganbatte mas!

P.S. been having soooo MUCH laughter with judy and najiah.
totally had not much energy left to do work now.
hope we're not gonna laugh as much as today!
LOL. sore jyane... (:

if i were to have the chance to turn back time,
i'll definitely want to meet you again.
and this time, i'll NEVER going to let you go.
i promise.
but, life's always full of regrets whenever we
don't treasure the things around us..
so, start now! live on without any regrets.. (:

Recorded by Jun

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Tuesday, March 25, 2008
9:35 PM

kinda low energy today..
well, might be sruprised to my school mates,
cause it's like i'm always so hyper and happy,
the noisest and the crazy one infront of them..
it's just that i'm someone who don't like to
show my sadness to my friends especially those
in my class..they might think that i'm a sadist or
something. i admit, i'm a very extreme person.
i can either be very happy or very upset.
in between those two i may act weird. really weird eh?
all of a sudden talking about all these.

been so 'hard' working nowadays..
keep reminding myself that i HAVE to CHANGE
all my bad habits, time management and all..
i guess i just hated my old self.
the lazy, no determination, words speaks louder
than words junzhu. i don't know. a sudden change in me
maybe abi ttoo SUDDEN for me.. hmm..
sometimes i do really thought: Why am i in NAFA?
why i would want to spent all my dad's, mum's, grandpa's
and even my own hard earned money just to learn ART?
alot of times i kept thinking about this question.
my answer IS obvious, i just LOVE ART.
when i'm so stressed up with my work,
i'll think of my ambition, that is to learn more about ART!
be good in something...though it's really still a LONG LONG
way for me to go.. since i'm only EIGHTEEN this year.
still very immatured, alot to learn!
having history and digital media lesson makes me that i'm still
so far from my aim. TOO FAR that i don't wanna think about it.
the future is for ME to decide, for ME to change the possible
outcomes from the bad to the BETTER i guess?

i'm not good with words, i want to improve in it.
i'm not good in brainstorming, i want to learn step by step.
i'm not good with understanding essays, i want to slowly try my
best to understand.
i'm not good in organizing, i want to start learning from my
own life.

all of these had been going through my mine for YEARS
and YEARS..ever since when i'm in secondary 3..
TILL NOW, i'm only starting to change myself.
bit by bit, I hope to be a better person.
i can't be fooling around as usual.
fooling around doesn't bring me anywhere!
i MUST believe that i can change.
i know if i'm into something, i can make it.
I CAN DO IT!
i cannot give up so easily.
the worse is not about giving up actually,
it is worse who you are when you have GIVEN UP.

i don't wanna be upset about broken friendships,
no matter how much i treasure these friendships.
i know myself. i can cry and break down whenever
i met problems that i couldn't solve by myself.
cause i really bad at solving relationships like these.
which i can't really do much since it's my weakness.

i'm always telling myself, dont mind about life,
always having UPS and DOWNS,
cause life is really like this!
but just like what i said to wanci..
make sure you make a stand that the
ups will always STAY,
the downs will go AWAY.
and i think by thinking this way, your life
becomes brighten up and you'll live happier.
even though many times people think of the negative
first than the start searching the positive side in them,
which i think it is really wrong.
MUST MUST MUST always start thinking the positive
than the negative. i've once read a book named
100 ways to motivate yourself, it stated that
NEGATIVE will always be the one that bounces in your
mind up and down...up and down..up and down..
since we're all have a mind that is like this
why not make the POSITIVE be the one that will bounce
up and down in your mind instead of the negative?
we all have our own choice.
LIFE is for us to discover the meaning behind for each
and everyone of us.
you wanna LIVE on with your life aimlessly,
don't even know what you're learning for,
what you're studying for OR you wanna LIVE on with
the LIFE that you wanted it to be and start making changes?
i won't expect everyone has the same thinking with
me, rather than i make people to agree with my thinking,
why not i just do the example to SHOW people how i think?
up for YOU to decide, whether you want to change yourself
or remain the same way as you are now, if you think
you're doing the right thing.
If you are, move on, go ahead!

well, i know i'm being abit emotional today,
starting to make logics and abit of teaching and motivating?
haha. i don't know what's the reason too but just
wanted to record some of my innner feelings before
i go crazy someday for hiding my feelings for long...
don't mind that. :) well, gonna start my work now,
so shall update sometime again. tata! sore jya.

"ups will always STAY, the downs will go AWAY!"
i can do it, i will be positive. i shall stay this way.
don't be lost in my way. my OWN WAY.
ganbatte mas!
everytimeiseethehardworkinyou
i'llgetmyfightingspiritback
arigatou ne, :) shinjiteru kara!

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Saturday, March 22, 2008
6:34 PM

sometimesigetupseteasliyandidontlikethefeelingofit

andiwillfeelhurtandneglectedmostofthetimeswhenmyfriends

donotbotheraboutmeevenforadaybutsomehowichangemymood

justlikethefishesintheoceanthewayitypemypostdoesntmakeyou

feelfrustratedandgiddywhilereadingitwithoutanypunctuationmarks

nospacingnopausesinbetweensentenceshowdoesitfeelliketoypelikethis

ok, enough of my crap. just trying out a new method

to type my post which i think it's damn irritating and i'm

not even making any sense in my sentences!

LOL.

what does this tell you?

puntuation IS important.

HAHAHAHA!

alright, i hasn't been fine for the whole day though.

abit crazy while doing my montage..

and i have a good news for myself,

I FINISHED MY PRINTMAKING!

wahaha. just yesterday night.. so happy.

and i left with 3 montages and i'm done with my digi!

a big accomplisement man..usually i won't be that fast

in completing my work ne.. hee.

well, hope that i can buck up and slaughter the other 3 montages

and i'm ready to start my complemetary journal..

almost done with it though, but still need some more

touching ups.. yep (:

after all these, i'm still left with my charcoal,

3D and watercolour! ohmygod. watercolour.

it's really NEVER ENDING WORK yeah?

well well, gotta GANBATTE throughout these 7 weeks

and awaits for the TERM BREAK!

gotta start finding jobs to earn back my school fees!

been soooo broke nowadays..using my nets to pay for my

art materials and stuffs, my heart aches! argh.

shoganaijyan ne~ mo.

hmm. gotta finish up my montages!

sore jya, MATTA NE!

love always, zhu.

it's you, who brought back my confidence in myself.

it's you, who made it possible for me to smile once more.

it's you, who make my life much more meaningful.

it's you, who made my impossible to possible.

it's you, that made me feel that i'm not alone, anymore.

it's true, i mean it from the bottom of my heart. (:

hoping that i'm able to tell all that...

SOMEDAY, FOR SOMEBODY.

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Thursday, March 20, 2008
10:31 PM

I DON'T CARE!
I WANT TO GET ALL THE THINGS DONE!
AND WATCH CARTOON KAT-TUN AFTER THAT!
haha. well, been craving for last wed's
cartoon kat-tun till NOW which i had been crazy
over JIN from the last episode.. oh no! than what about
dear kame? no worries, kame is still my all time fav,
just that Jiinny is real funny in these episodes..
LOL. hoping to finish my mon-wed works during this
weekends, i'll try my best even though it doesn't sound
possible.. XP tonikaku, GANBATTE MAS!

went to bugis with my classmates AGAIN,
sumathi, judy and sharifah.. been visiting BUGIS
for two days in a week and kinda sick of the things..
oh well, it's actually quite enjoyable cause due to the
stress of work and we do need the 'fresh air' and get away
from the stressful school campus.
sharifah mentioned 'memories are the most important'
while we're talking about birthday celebrations..
hmm, i do agree with her in fact, my birthday is FULL of
memories rather than full of presents.. haha.
sumathi's birthday coming, well hope that we'll give an
unforgetable birthday! (:

sandra's sick! i heard from clarissa and it's like i felt so guilty
cause i haven't been concerning about her this few days..
felt so bad, so gave her a text but she didn't reply! :(
well, hoping she will be fine after these weekends so she'll
be able to concentrate on her studies..
GET WELL SOONIE SANDY!

mum's going malaysia tmr till sun..
soo GOOD :)
it's been the first time she's leaving us,
sis,dad and me behind and go overseas
which i felt quite happy for her though.
hope she'll enjoy her days!

life's nowadays been fine, except for whatever i don't wish to say..
those who know will know.
i know it's irritating if i keep mentioning but it's just something
i need sometime to forget. since i'm someone who'll remember
things like things maybe for years. XP yep, no choice i just like
this. BUT, im still living on with my life. no one can control any-
one's life except for yourself. i'm moving on! moving on! on and on..
watashi wa, JUN DES!
that's the way uh huh, uh huh, I LIKE IT:) uh huh!
yep, staying positive all the way ne!
have to start my work now,
gotta goooooo~~~~
like NOW!

ganbatte ne, minna san, everyone! jiayou jiayou jiayou ah!
aza aza FIGHTING! (tamil i don't know. too bad XP)

it's you who kept my fighting spirit lifted up and going on.
it's you who gave me hope when i'm feeling down.
it's you who broughr my life into a wonders of colours.
it's you who will made me smile no matter what happens.
it's you who i saw my reflection in.
it's you who changed my life, my mind and my heart (:
and without you, i won't be who i am now.

wondering when i'll get to see you in reality?
or am i dreaming for the impossible again?
i guess, i'm dazing in my far away lala land once again.

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Monday, March 17, 2008
9:18 PM

KONBANWA! (it's kinda random and short post.)
well, it's been really a long dayy~
had our first printmaking lesson with miguel!
muahaha. it wasn't as bad as i thought though..
so yeah.. i can say that it's a good start of the week
where i get to chat and have fun with my dearests
while learning at the same time!
my mood was abit low in the morning jsut as before
school starts today.. kinda stressed up with the work
load.. hmm. but then, i'm totally so relaxed when i with
my sayangs! sharifah, liyana, sumathi, esther JUDE!
haha. they're the ones that will make my day so enjoy-
able and full of laughters.. especially sharifahahaha and
JUDY..haha! nice watching cartoon kat-tun with sharifah! LOL.
well, hoping to stay like this till we graduate ne :)
(even though it's not very possible..as future is unpreditable!)

anyway, still hasn't completed my report!
STUCK AT 1037 WORDS..
yep. gonna complete it BY tonight!
aja aja! kok chomaseyo~ (by najiahXP)
i'll finish up by tonight!
ganbatte masu!
just a short post for today. update soon.
"just when i was too tired to move on with my life,
one person came appearing in my mind.
i'm so glad that it was you" (:

KAMENASHI KAZUYA!
(those who know who's that thinks that jun is goin crazy XP
but seriously i'm NOT! haha.)

if anyone happens to read this,
i'll definitely hope it'll be the someone that
i'm talking about in my most depressed moments.
不管以后发生什么，我再也不会关心
一个让我伤心又难过，
一个伤害我而不会说对不起的人。
你就是一即不了解对方的心意，
又不分青红皂白的人。
路遥之马力，日久见人心。
我终于看清你的真面目了。

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Saturday, March 15, 2008
9:02 PM

我：

总是往往要求太多。
总是有着太天真的想法。
总是把重心放在不必要的地方。
总是想着在远方的他。
总是说到却没做到。
总是想的比做得多。
总是心里想的和事实上做的都不一样。
总是一直在自己梦想的世界里。

不知道这是好还是不好？

my mood changes as my world changes.

Slept for THREE HOURS today.
i fell asleep immediately after reading the essay.
oh my god. i'm utterly lost in words with myself.
had been starting to do my report since last friday
and up until now, i've only completed 20% of the report.
3 days. THREE DAYS plus the three hours. it is enough for me
to finish up my other work as well as my report.
why? why am i so distracted the whole week?
is it becasue i've played too much?
or because i've been thinking too much?
HAIYO.
i had no idea too. wholly disappointed in myself.
lack of perseverance.
lack of determination.
lack of will.
i don't get it. i don't understand either.
i don't feel like doing anything else.
my mind is so distrated that i couldn't
make the right decision.
gradually, i'm losing all of my energy.
i'm losing my fighting spirit.
i'm losing my confidence.
i hope to change ALL of my weaknesses.
but it seemed impossible.
i'm so insane about you.
i even have you appearing in my dreams.
what's so WRONG with me nowadays?
i'm completely so clueless now.

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Thursday, March 13, 2008
8:39 PM

Went out AGAIN todae!
met up with risa and sanda and also
met up with iqa, supposedly going to the cineleisure
9 lvl to see johnnys stuffs.. but in the end..
it was CLOSED.
down with my luck.
first, went to kino look for the myojo magazine and now,
ARGH.
well, never mind, it just shows that i shouldn't play too much
now.. should start on my history report!
oh my. but anw, had a great time chatting with iqa,
it's really a different feeling chatting with someone whom
knows what you are talking about..
in this case, topic is all about johnnys and AKame. XP
haha. hope to meet up with her again!

back to my main topic, met up with my dearest friends,
risa and sanda!

we went to parkway, shopped for a while and went off ard 6plus,
as all of us were very tired..so yeah. had a fun time meeting them
even though we're all in low energy state..anyway,recieved a
card and a pressie from them, which i was like quite surprised,
cause i didn't expect them to give me a present? haha.
well, the best thing is they gave me a handphone strap with
my name on.. it's something that i wanted actually. I'm so glad
to recieved this pressie! haaha. thanks darlings! :)

wanna thank them from the bottom of my heart,
seriously, i appreciate their existence in my life..
treasure them ALOT, for being so supportive,
remembering me, and most importantly,
being my friends! :) thanks alot, alot, ALOT!

although we're in different courses, and sometimes
i feel that me and sanda,risa are difting apart,
but still i think that it'll be good that we'll just stay like this
for the years in future~! i don't expect much, serious.
i just want friends around me to remember that they still
have me as a friend whom will stay be their side,
listening to all their troubles, sharing all their happiness,
and what's wrong with that?

that's what friends are for right?
be it whether we're close friends or not, i think that
it is important for me to care for everyone around especially
those who're in need! and i hope that everyone will get their
happiness eventually, somehow, sometime..
and i'll be the one who will be supporting them no matter what!
just like risa and sanda!
FRIENDS FOREVER GIRLS!
meet up during school hols alright! have fun!

watashi tachi, SHINYU DA! tomodachi da! :)

I WANT TO BE HAPPY!
I WANT TO LEAD A POSITIVE LIFE!
I WANT TO LEARN MORE THINGS ABOUT LIFE!
I WANT TO BE MORE MATURED!
I WANT TO KNOW MORE ABOUT ART!
I WILL BE WHAT I WANNA BE!

p.s. sometimes i do feel that i'm so obsessed with
kamenashi kazuya. is this a bad thing?
i'm not sure.. i feel that he is whom i look upon to,
someone whom i'll be learning from, someone that i
wanna be friends with.. but again, idol and fan?
become friends? haha. laughing stock yeah?
i don't know. i really don't know. XP
kamisama, watashiwa doshiyo kana?

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Wednesday, March 12, 2008
12:32 AM

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO ME!
weird of me to say happy birthday to myself..
well, firstly please close other windows before reading this blog..
it's gonna be almost a hundred of photos (will be lesser lah)
and it seriously gonna LAG your comp like mad.
be patient, here i go!

met up with sharifah and esther JUDE at the Terminal 3
to do the complementary studies work..
BUT i think we ended up with cam whoring and
a little bit of shopping instead! LOL.
waited for them like ONE HOUR plus?
almost became a stone while waiting.. haha!
well, cause they went to get my present so...i'll FORGIVE.
haha. anyway, they got me a swensens ICE cream cake,
a meji chocs and a ROSE! :) omg. i love rose man.
alright, shall start to post the pics already.. there more to come!

the ice cream they gave..it's OISHIDESU!!

they were playing with the dry ice that came along with
the cake..and i took it with the rose..
the smoke with the rose, NICE!

this dry ice will FREEZE your fingers when you hold it too long..
and you'll feel pain immediately!

my VERY NATURAL friends, sharifah jude! :)

here we are cam whoring~

spotted this kame massager in mini toons,
anyone can buy for me pleshhh??? XP

thought of taking pics with this unique wall..

JUDE took it too..

well, so did i!

here we cam whoring again..

sorry that i hasnt gotten enough time to rotate these pics..
taken in the lift.

we're the artists, we MUST be CREATIVE!
even in taking photos!

we must make photos! not just only take..

so we did i tell ya?

haha.

i don't know what's the reason too..

that i really like to take photos in the mrt?? XP

well, we ended the trip about 3 hours later which is like?
2 plus..and i met up with JOYCE after the airport trip, we planned to
go my house to make a cheese cake! muahahaha.
supposedly hua, jialing coming de but end up they couldn't come,
so..yup. Siok and ting xuan came around 6 plus so that's only
joyce and me 'baking' the cake! it's really a nice exprience
and fun even though it wasn't VERY sucessful..
well, i'll explain further as i post the pics..
here i go again!

didn't take pics during the process of making the cake,
but instead i took the failures and problems we met!
this is the burnt and dried up gelatine powder..

by right, the gelatine powder should be mixing well with
this yogurt and cream cheese, so since it's burnt and dried
up, it became like this X(

well, we didn't give up actually, instead we redo a new one!

this is taken while we wait for the cake to be cooled down..
here i go cam whoring! (AGAIN)

IF joyce ever reads this post, ithink she's gonna kill me for
posting all thses pics.. XP

after about an hour later, we took out the cake from
the fridge and TADA!! sorry it doesn't looked a whole
as we ate some before we took.. haha.

just right after 6, siok and ting xuan came and we had the cake
together, we ate sushis that my mum made just for me!:)yays.

had to take photos just right before joyce go..so..

just as i went out to bring joyce out, my two cute friends
had to entertain themselves with my cam!

they took pic of my cup..

played with my purple handband..

and my sunglasses! oh siok~

haha. siok and xuan were very entertained by themselves
though.. LOL. they almost got me scared out of my wits
when they came my house.. i was in my room with joyce and
suddenly i heard the door opening and to my surprise,
they were wearing the party hats and even brought ballons
in shapes of heart and purple coloured.. oh my.
received a photo album from siok and xuan..
(i looked and felt so old in the pic!)

they were trying to make a heart shape on top of me..

and with a few tries..

and yeah~we've almost got a perfect heart shape! :)

(for those who're still here, i'm glad you survived. hope
your comp. still fine! haha)
and just as i thought i'm gonna end the day with a dinner out
with my parents...this is what happened.
i heard my dad and sis came back and my family came appearing
in my room all of a sudden and sang
HAPPY BIRTHDAY song for me...:)

i felt soo heart warming
all of a sudden..serious. and i felt my mum had her
left hand patting on my head and i'm felt so LOVED!
oh my.. never in my life, 17 years in my life had i felt
so loved by my family before..just happened when i became
eighteen on the day! i'm so touched and almost cried! aww..

with my friends and family celebrating with me,

having fun together..

my funny sister with me..

cutting cake together..

a pizza BIG meal as usual..

with friends whom so talkative!

sunflower,rose,postcard,frame,necklace,
album,card,cakes and celebration! sweet:)

now, i want to present awards to everyone whom sent their wishes
to me during this special of mine! it's not in order!

THE MOST SINCERE AWARD GOES TO..
SONG WANCI!
(thanks for the SUNflowers and well written card dear!)

THE MOST CREATIVE AWARD GOES TO..
MY SIS!
(your skills had improved, loving your kame post card!)

THE MOST FESTIVE AWARD GOES TO..
SIOK AND XUAN!
(thanks for the most festive mood you guys gave me,
the album and balloons and everything!)

THE MOST DELICIOUS AWARD GOES TO..
SHARIFAH and JUDY!
(thanks for the oishii cake and chocs, and the beautiful rose!
and also to judy for dressing up nicely!)

THE MOST CLOSE TO HEART AWARD GOES TO..
JOYCIE,HUA,JIALING!
(thanks for the necklace! joyce, thanks for the frame
and the kames you've made me!)

and to those who've wished me, thanks! thanks for remembering
my birthday!!!!
well, i should end this VERY SOON!
and sorry that this post is a SUPER LONG LONG LONG
one..not only just the words, and with tons and tons
of pics! for those who've made till here, congrats!
haha. it's been an enjoyable and fun birthday this year..
and also, the most TIRING BIRTHDAY i've ever had!
whole day FULLY BOOKED!
oh my..alright, ok..
gotta sleep! chiong work!
lotsa work to do, no holidays at all!
ganbatte ne! night everyone,
thanks for EVERYTHING! EVERYONE!
friends and family=? PRICLESS!

loves, zhu (:

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